Yes its positive I am having another baby. I am terrified! I am also very happy too.
In February, I was not feeling right and just had a feeling there was something different. I didn't think I was pregnant because I had just had Sharyn in November and my body was not back to normal yet. ( also, there was no way I could be pregnant because it took me 2 1/2 years to get pregnant with baby Sharyn, and 2 years with Austin) I was having surgery ( carpel tunnel surgery, on my left hand) and so I took a pregnancy test just to make sure. It came back negative. So I went through the surgery with out a hitch. I was feeling so much better but still had not started my period. I was thinking maybe because I was getting older my body was freaking out. Dan kept insisting I was pregnant. So he got me a test. I kept putting it off, for about a week finely Dan could not wait any longer. This time the test came back positive. I started to cry, not because I was happy (even though I was) but because I was terrified. I just had surgery and I didn't want to go though another loss, or something wrong with the baby. (I found out that everything they had given me with my surgery would not harm the baby, so that was a relief). But I still had to go to my first appointment. I was so nerves. (You realize I had just had Sharyn only 3 months before I became pregnant. CRAZY!) I had so many dreams that I would go into the office and the ultrasound would not find a baby, just a placenta and no baby. So the dreaded day came and my Doctor COULD NOT FIND THE BABY. I was a mess is was shaking and started getting really frustrated at my doctor. Why could he not find the baby and why was he not saying anything. I yelled at him in frustration, "What are you seeing, or not seeing!" he was relaxed and told me everything was OK, not to worry. I was going to worry it was playing out just like my dreams. Finlay he said he was going to try something different, and decided to try an external ultrasound. FINELY! he found the baby. Just under my belly button. Weird place but normal for me. The baby was hiding high in my pelvis. What a relief. My doctor talked to me for a long time about how things will be different this time and that I will be watched very carefully, and he would do his best at making sure that I brought home a healthy baby this time. I felt a little better. So now we just have to wait. I think that I will go nuts before this baby gets here. I don't know if I can wait again. I already did this not to long ago and I have to start over again. It is killing me but I hope that this time will be a happy experience and that we will have a beautiful healthy baby.
Buy the way, Sharon and my mom tease me that I am an Elephant! Nice hu? Really they are not trying to be mean. They are just referring to how long I will be pregnant, before I bring home a baby. Elephants as you know, are pregnant for 2 years. So Sharon and my mom tease me that I will be pregnant for the same length of time as an Elephant. Sharon has all ready bought the new baby a present, a Dumbo baby stuffed animal. So I had to put it in the picture.
