Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving dinner yum! The kids and Dan really enjoyed the day. Come to think of it for the most part I did to. We had lots to eat, and I really enjoyed the company. Ryanne had to have her accessory's, with her orange feather boa, and handbag.

Pie yum!

Sharon brought her Friend Rachel along, because her family is away for the holidays. So she will be spending the holidays with us.

We also went bowling with the family. Noah was amazing, he got a 100 points with out using the bumpers (very much). He was so proud of his self. He says "its because I practiced on the wii." I think he is right.

John and Shays family came over that night to visit. We had Turkey sandwitches and salad. It was good to see them.

I feel thanksgiving went well. It has been hard to be exited for the holidays this year, but I was presently surprised how comforting it was to calibrate thanksgiving. To realize all my blessings and to give thanks for them.

I am thankful for my 4 beautiful children, and the blessings they bring to my life. Although Sharyn is not here with us right now, I still feel blessed to have her apart of our family.

I am thankful to have a wonderful husband who loves, and takes care of us. He is a great father and husband, I love all he dose for our family.

I am thankful for all my Friends and family that surrounds us. I am thankful for all they do for our family, the support they bring is such a blessing.

I am thankful for my Heavenly Father who watches over us, loves us, and comforts us in these hard times. And for the gospel, so our family can be together one day.

I could go on and on about all the things that I am thankful for. We are truly blessed!

Is this really happening

The past two weeks has gone on forever. I look back and can't believe this it is still happening to us. Is Sharyn really gone, am I really not pregnant any more, this is all serial. We went Christmas shopping on black Friday, and I think I saw more baby girls, and pregnant moms than I have ever seen. I so desperately want that to be me, but my body has completely erased the fact that I was even pregnant, just two weeks ago. My mom keeps saying that it's a blessing( for my body to be back to normal.) But I don't feel like it is because, I feel like she is getting erased. I keep looking at her pictures morning and night, so that I make sure that she was real and that I am not going crazy, that she really did exist.
I love her so much, and I know that she knows who her parents are, and she loves us to. And that she is in a better place. And I know that Heavenly Father loves us very much, and that he is looking out for us as well. I know that if there was not a grater plan, that he would have loved for us to raise our baby daughter here on the earth. And that he hates to see us suffer. I know in time I will find out why, and that I will be amazed how blessed we were from this trial. And I know that one day I will see her, and hold her and be able to watch her grow. I look forward to that day.

switching sites

I just switched blog sites, so I can customise my site. Also to be able to add pics easier. I have not been able to write on my blog, because I have not known what to say.