The Love keeps coming and comeing!

We have had so many blessings and an outpouring of love from others around us lately. I can truly say that we have been blessed.
The past few weeks have been stressful emotionally, because we are getting so close to the end of this pregnancy and it makes me so nervous. I was dreading October just because last October was so fun but ended up so sad. I have tried not to repeat the events from Sharyn's pregnancy but they keep happening anyway, but with a happier outcome. My mom keeps telling me that Heavenly Father is trying to replace the bad memory's with good ones and to show me that he Loves me and is looking out for our family. I kind of think maybe she is right.
Everyone around me is so excited that we are having our new bundle of joy that an outpouring of love has been given to our family.

First: When I was pregnant with baby Sharyn my sister and good friend Sheree through me a surprise baby shower that I never got to enjoy because we lost Sharyn two days before the shower.
On the 1st of October I was surprised again with a beautiful baby shower from Some wonderful women that are also angel moms,(They also recently lost there baby's to soon, just like Sharyn) Amy(Alexis's mom) and April(Harry's mom). They through Natalie(an Angel mom of Branson) and I a baby shower for our new baby girls. It was so much fun and special all at the same time. They included our baby's we lost, by adding their pictures on the mantel and invited other moms that have also lost a little one. I loved how not only were we celebrating our new baby's but also our ones we have lost. It was kind of like getting to have Sharyn's baby shower as well as Ambree's all at the same time. I loved that, It felt so good to do this for the both of them. Amy made these fun and cute Diaper cakes that had fun things on them, like a head band and cute flower, Diapers (of coarse), ribbon, rattle, lotion and baby bottle. And April hosted it at her home. The decorations and food were so cute and great! Just to see these women and to understand each other made the night so nice and perfect. Each one of these moms are such strong wonderful women. I am so grateful that I have got to know them and that they are there when I am in need. Thank you Again Amy & April! And Natalie, I can't wait to have our new baby girls see each other and become the best of friends. Love ya!

Second: My mom and sister through me another baby shower for Ambree. It was so much fun and I can't believe how many people came to support me and our new baby. I did not realize how many friends I truly had. I was so nervous for this baby shower just because of the last time, but this time it turned out wonderful. We had great food and wonderful people their. We even used the cute diaper cake that Amy made for me (I love It). It was overwhelming on the amount of people that came to show there love and support. It truly surprised me that everyone would come just for me and our new baby. We got lots of fun gifts, Ambree is very loved! We decided to take some balloons over to Sharyn's headstone. It felt like the shower was for both Ambree and Sharyn and I wanted her headstone decorated for the day. The baby shower was so much fun. Thank you to everyone that came, It really meant allot to see you all there. I can truly say that I feel loved, and that everyone is so excited for Ambree. Thank you!

Third: This last Saturday we had another blessing. My Cousin asked if we could use some help with our basement. (We are remodeling our basement so that we have room to move the older kids downstairs, so when Ambree comes home we have a nursery for her.) The basement has consumed our summer, and we still don't have it done. The baby is coming any day now and we don't have anywhere for her to come home too. Dan is working on it when ever he is home trying to get it done, but no mater how hard he works there is still so much more to do.
Any way, My Cousin asked his Elders quorum if they wanted to do a service project? And he suggested to help us with our basement. WOW! That was truly a blessing. They came and got almost the whole basement sheet rocked and ready to start mudding in one day.
Dan has been doing this the whole summer and they were able to finish it in just ONE DAY! It was so amazing. I can't tell you how relieving it is to be getting so close to finishing this project. To be able to stretch out and feel like there is room for everyone. I could not believe how hard everyone worked and they did it for us. It was truly another blessing. Thank you Daniel and the Single Adult Student word Elders quorum For coming over and helping our family. Thank you so much!

And to top off everything: We were able to participate in a "Walk to remember" and balloon release for stillborn and infant loss, put on by Share. Oh how I needed that. I have be so excited for our baby Ambree but missing baby Sharyn so much at the same time. I have tried really hard to not replace Sharyn with Ambree and to still honer the both of them. This walk was perfect for doing just that. I got to spend the day with my family and my Angel mom friends, to celebrate our baby's we lost and to remember them. It was such a wonderful event. It was so touching and it really made me feel closer to Sharyn. I also got the opportunity to remember other baby's in our family that were gone to soon as well. My aunt Kathy's baby- Jessica, my aunt Alice's baby- Angelina, My aunt Marlins baby- Greg, and my two nephew's Enoch and Lehi. It felt so good to also recognize them because they have made a hug impact in my life. Long before I lost Sharyn, I always looked back on these baby's and have seen how hard it was for them losing these baby's and how much there moms and family's missed and loved them. How they still include them in there family's and that they still have a special place in there hearts. I never thought I would one day say "I understand how you feel" but now I do and now I truly realize how strong and amazing these women truly are. They are a true example to me. I love you and am so glad that I was able to do this little walk for your baby's. It was perfect.

So in the end this October is turning out perfect and we are defiantly feeling the prayers and and love that is coming our way. I truly feel blessed! Heavenly Father is watching over us and blessing us with the people that we are surrounded by. You are some of our greatest blessings. Thank you so much! love Sheila and Family

Up date on our baby girl!

I have not written in a while about this pregnancy and how things are going. I am stopped all the time to find out how everything is and how I am doing. Things are great! I am a little paranoid but doing fine.
I go to the doc. two times a week and have a none stress test done just to make sure baby Ambree is doing good. She is doing just fine and is moving everywhere, I love that I get to see her twice a week just to check up on her and I can't wait to hold her in my arms. Dan complains all the time that I am hogging her and I wont let him hold her. LOL! I think it is so cute how exited he is to have her come in to our home. She is now about 4lbs and is still head up. Which every time I see the NST nurse she asks if I have had a c-section before, ( I have not) and then she warns me that this time I might. Honestly I really don't care, I just want to bring her home safely, that is all. I am getting so anxious to have her here I can hardly stand it, but I still have about 4 more weeks to go. CRAZY!
I steel have no where to put her bed up because we still have not moved the kids down stairs yet.
By the way if you didn't know we are also in a huge remodel, trying to convert our home from a two family home in to a one family home. My grandfather when he inherited this home he blocked the stairs and put in a second kitchen in the basement. He also put in two furriness and two water heaters in so the home is truly a duplex. So when my sister and I bought the home it worked perfectly for us because she had her space and I had mine. But now she has moved out and we are trying to make it all ours. Dan and I are now converting it into a home where we will have the whole thing. Its been lots and lots of work trying to get it done before the baby comes, it has been stressful. I can't wait until it is all done and we get to enjoy it. It has been such a crazy last couple of months that I have not had the time or energy to sit and write how I am feeling and what is going on. But I plan on doing better and hopefully life will slow down shortly.
I can't wait to have all these new and exciting events over so we can get back to some what normal.
I just wanted to fill you in a little bit and let you know why I have been absent. And yes we are doing just fine.
I also got some pregnancy pics done just this week so when they are done I will post them. I think they will turn out great. Can't wait to share.
Thank you to all of you that are concerned about our family and ask how we are doing and for keeping us in your prayers. I know with all the prayers, love and support that this baby will come home to us and be such a joy. We just wanted to say how grateful we are and Thank you for caring. It means so much to me that you have been such a suport to us and a true blessing. I just wanted to say Thanks!

best of freinds

I don't know what it is about Ryanne and our cat Timberley, but they have always had this special bond since they were both little. When Ryanne was only about 18 months old we went to my Aunt Kathy's home to visit them. They had just had a litter of kittens and among the new kittens was this little black fluffy kitten named Timberley that would always fallow Ryanne around. We would go to bed and the next morning Timberley was sleeping right next to Ryanne. Every where Ryanne went there was this little black fuzzball on her heals. It was so dang cute we decided to take her home. You would think after all these years the bond they had for each other would fade. But NO! Timberley puts up with all of Ryanne's creative Ideas to humiliate this poor little cat. She dresses her up, carries her around in a blanket and comes up with all kinds of ways to play with her. And Timberley still loves her more than all others. She will still fallow her around, give her kisses and just can't get enough of Ryanne. Today Ryanne called me to come downstairs to see what she had done and here was this cradle with a cute bundle of joy in it. Yes! it was the cat, as the baby in the cradle. Poor cat, the crazy thing is that it looked like Timberley was enjoying it. I think it is so funny that this cat loves Ryanne as much as Ryanne loves her. I think they were friends before they came to this earth. They are the best of friends.

A special gift for our little girl!

It is finely here. Sharyn's headstone.The other day we were at a family party and I got a text message from my sister Sharon, that had baby Sharyn's headstone on it and the caption "It's all paid for" on it. "What?" I said, I did not get it, and then I started balling. I couldn't believe it, our baby girl will finely have her headstone to honer her and so we will be able to show her how much we love her.
Dan and I only could afford to pay for half of it and we had to save up for the rest. I was stressed that it was getting so late in the summer and that we were not going to be able to get the rest paid for before the ground was too frozen to be able to set it. I was so sad that I could not go and put flowers on Sharyn's grave and just find her. I had kind of lost track of were her grave was and it really bothered me.
I guess my mom and Sharon and my Grandma Bernice decided awhile ago that they were going to surprise me and pay off the remainder balance of her headstone for us. They wanted to wait until it was placed before the told me and just take me over to her grave site to show me, but they could tell I was getting really anxious to get it paid off and that I probably could not wait that long (They were right, I was going nuts, trying to figure out how we were going to pay off the rest) So after Sharon, my mom and Grandma payed it off they sent me the e-mail. They just had got back, and so they saw my reaction, I balled and balled. They got the reaction that they had expected. Everyone at the party was shocked that I was crying and asked what was wrong. I told them what they had done and so all of us were teary eyed.
I am so so so happy I can't even tell you. I called my grandma and told her how much it meant to me and balled again on the Phone. I just can't even tell them how much this truly meant to me and my family.
The other day we went and put flowers on her new little headstone and showed the kids it. They loved it and were so exited to finely see it. We are so happy!I just wanted to say again, THANK YOU! I love you Mom, Sharon and Grandma. I think this was the most special gift that you could give our little family and it will always mean the world to us. We love you!
And we love you so much Sharyn, I can't wait to hold you in my arms and give you a little kiss.
Love, Mommy!

Austin "You are getting so BIG!"

We finished the summer with our last birthday. Austin just turned a BIG 5 years old, and he is so happy to be a year older. It has been hard for him to see his brother and sister have there birthdays before him and he still had to wait for his. I was going through some of his baby pics and found these. Isn't he so dang cute? I cant believe how fast he has grown up.Austin is such a fun boy, and I mean "all boy." He loves anything that has to do with engines, like cars, trucks, airplanes, etc. Anything that he can make noises with or drive, is his thing. He also loves "Eggo go" (Go Diego Go). He is always busy and talks your ear off. He loves his big brother and wants to do everything he is doing (Of course he is as big as Noah in his mind) and can't wait to be as big as him. He loves to wrestle and ruff house. He also is such a big helper, and every time I need him to help around the house he is right there saying "Can I help?"

We had so much fun on his big day. My Aunt told me about this fun splash pad behind Ogden Athletic Club. It was so fun (and it was free:) the kids loved it and it made Austins Birthday even more special. After we came home and made cupcakes (Austin was so exited to help make his own cupcakes, he loved liking the bowl) We went up to Grandma Louise's house and did a little more swimming, ate good food and opened presents. It was such a fun day and I think Austin will remember his 5Th birthday for a long time.
I love you so much My little "Stitch" Austin.

What am I suppose to learn from all of this?

"What am I suppose to learn from all of this?" This is my new question that I ask Heavenly Father these days. Not that I don't trust him, but what am I suppose to be learning from all that is happening lately.
"Why you ask?" "Why am I asking these questions?" Well this pregnancy has been a crazy roller coaster and also my life has been as well. These past few months have been so so uncomfortable. We have made some scary, but great changes in our living situation, and that has me all kinds of uncomfortable. We have recently bought our home, that we have been sharing with my sister Sharon. That sounds like a good thing right? Well it is a great thing but we were just not quite ready to take on the house payments all on our own. We still needed a few years to get some bills paid off. But Sharon has been out of work for a long time and has gone back to school. She just doesn't have the money anymore to stay here with us, so she is moving home. We had two choices, refinance our home or sell it. We were able to refinance it so it is now in our budget. Great! right? well it is great but now we have to put the stars in and take the kitchen out in the basement so we can make room for the boys to be downstairs and all this has to be done before the new baby comes, which is stressing me out. Like I don't have enough to stress about. I am looking forward to having the house to our selves, but I also am going to miss Sharon around and all she does to help our family out. We will miss you lots and lots Sharon!
Now on to this pregnancy. I can't tell you how I am such a basket case with this pregnancy. First I found out we were pregnant again. Which was wonderful and scary news. It was such a miracle, because with all my other children we had to have help or tried for several years. And this baby came as a surprise. Then in just the first few months I started bleeding. That was so scary! I thought "I can't do this again". Every thing ended up OK but it put me in a tense mood with this baby. I had such mixed emotions. If this baby was a boy, I was going to be so mad. Not that I would not love another boy, but that I didn't have a baby girl for Ryanne. She was so exited to have a baby sister and to not have one was so sad. Than we found out that we were having a little girl. And my emotions went crazy again. What! A girl! I was shocked I was convinced that I was having a boy. Now I was even more terrified. NO! I was not going to get attached to this baby until she was here. Ya right! I love this little girl so much already. So everyone was asking what are you going to name her? I did not want to name her yet, because than I would love her even more. But my kids would talk about her all of the time and wanted to know what to call her. Finely Dan and I decided. Her name is "Ambree Sheila Winterbottom" actually it felt so good to finely giver her a name. She deserves having us name her and for us to be existed for her.
Now she has a name and we love her so much, what am I going to do if something goes wrong? So about a week ago I find out that I have Gestational Diabetes. Great! Isn't this pregnancy hard enough? I am only 26 weeks and I already fill like I am 35 weeks along. My hips hurt and I can't sleep at night. What am I going to do now? So they gave me a new diet to fallow (Which has not been that bad) and all seems to be going well, until I notice that Baby Ambree is not moving as much as she has been before. Do I call the doc. and bug him? Am I just being paranoid? So I decide to call the doc. just to make sure everything is going OK. And everything is going just fine. The baby is just under detox (I guess that is how you would describe it) She has had lots of sugar because of my diabetes, so she is just coming off of all of that. She is just a little sleepy lately. Today I finely fill her moving a lot more than I have in awhile, so that makes me fill a hole lot better.
Any way basically I am a nervous wreck all the time and can't really seem to enjoy this pregnancy at all. I just want Ambree here so bad I can hardly stand it and it tortures me to think I have 2 months to go. I hope I can be strong (Well I know that I can be strong, maybe just not happy about it) I just need to thank Heavenly Father for the blessings that I have, and ask again "What am I suppose to learn from all of this so it dose not happen again". Maybe it is to be patient, and maybe it is to trust in Him. What ever it is, I hope I learn it fast so that I can be sane again. I am ready to be back to normal.
Sorry about the venting just needed to get it out.

Big Day!

It is a little late but I had to write on how I am so proud of my son, Noah.
On August the 1st, Noah was baptized a member of the Church Of Jesus Christ Of Latter-day Saints, and I am so happy for him. He was beaming all day, and could not wait to be baptized. He loved having all his friends and family there to support him in this great step in life.
The day went just perfect! Before we left for the church Noah opened a gift from Dan and I, to help him remember this special day. We gave him a baptism towel and a tie tack that he could ware to remember the promises that he made. He loved it and wanted to were the tie tack all day.
I love this picture of my two guys all dressed in white. They looked so handsome.
And this is Noah in his new suit, Wow! he looked so sharp. His grandpa Mike gave a talk about receiving the Holy Ghost. He gave Noah a little white box to help him remember that the Holy Ghost was a wonderful "gift" given to us by our Heavenly Father. Thanks Grandpa, you gave such a great talk it was perfect.
The day was wonderful, and I just wanted to say how proud I am of you Noah. I love you and am so glad that you have made such great choice and I know that Our Heavenly Father is so proud of you and he loves you very much.
I LOVE YOU NOAH!

It's Great to be 8!

Noah turns 8 tomorrow, and I can't believe it. He is my little guy, and I don't want him to ever grow up. He is so sweet and loving, its hard to see him get so big.
He loves everything Starwars and would love to be a jedi. He also wants to be a spy when he grows up, or he wants to be a brake dancer. So in other words he wants to be a break dancing spy. He also loves everything that has to do with sharks and stingrays. He will read every book he can find on them. 2 years ago we went to Sea World and he asked the pore lady at the stingray exhibit, every thing he could think of about stingrays. One of his favorite things he loves to ask people is "Stingrays are slimy, do you know why? Because they have boogers all over there bodies." It is so fun to see him get so exited about learning.
We always do a great big party for our kids 8th birthday, because it is such a special birthday. But since his birthday is on the 24th of July, it makes it hard to have Friend's over, so we had his big party on Sat the 18th. We had such a blast! He invited lots of boys over for a fun swim party at Grandma Louise's house. The theme of the party was sharks and stingrays. (Surprise! Surprise!) It took lots of looking to find shark decorations but it turned out just perfect.
We had a shark pinata


I want to thank all the boys that came and for the wonderful gifts they brought.

Now on to our Noah and his baptism. He is so exited to be baptized next week. I would have to say that I couldn't be more proud of him. He had his Bishop interview a few weeks ago and when he came out of his office he was beaming. He was caring his white outfit and was so exited to try it on when we got home. It was so cute. I asked him if he knew what being baptized meant and he told me that "It is fallowing Jesus and making good choices." He also said that "He would be perfect." I think he thought that was pretty cool. I also asked him what dose being conformed mean. "It means that I will have the holy Ghost. And he is Jesus's helper." I loved his answers they were so simple but sweet. He is such a wonderful son and I love him so much. when I think about him being baptized it makes me cry. I am so proud of him and his choices and can't wait for that day.
Noah, you are so special, and loving. You make me laugh, with your funny story's and interesting ways to look at life. You make our family so much more fun, with your smile and laughter and you are such a great brother and son. I am so proud of you and can't wait for you to be 8! I love you very much.