It's been a long time!

I am sorry but I have not been able to wright on my blog for a few weeks. I have not had the Internet for some time and have been itching to wright my thoughts, but couldn't get logged on. So we had lots of things happening these last few weeks and I am going to just do an update today.

First off I want to talk about my beautiful girl Ryanne. She is getting so big and she just had her 10Th birthday. WOW! I cant believe that I am a mom of a 10 year old. Crazy!Ryanne is such a beautiful person inside and out. She helps me all the time, if I were to ask her to come help with dinner she would say "OK mom!" and stop what she is doing and help. I could not ask for a more perfect daughter. She loves that she is getting taller and her goal is to be taller that her Dadda. (She has called her dad that ever since she could talk. And between you and me, I think she probably will get taller than him. But of course that is not hard when you are only 5 foot 5. Poor Dan!) She loves to paint and draw and loves anything creative. She also is a very good knitter (She did not learn it from me. I could never figure knitting out) She is always finding new ways to get her creativity out. She is very talented. She also a very good sales women, if any of you drive by our house during the summer time you will see Ryanne standing out front of our home trying to sale some sort of thing. She loves money and saving money. She says her goal for when she grows up is to be a millionaire. I believe she really could be. here are a few pics of her growing up. I love you Ryanne!
She had a nice Birthday with the family and I think she really enjoyed the presents. Can you tale she LOVED her birthday outfit. (She is such a modal) All in all I think she likes being 10 and looks forward for the year.

THE 4TH OF JULY
Moving on. Also the past week we went to Washington State to visit my Sisters family. We have visited them the past few years on the 4Th of July because they have the BEST fireworks there. You don't have the limitations that you have in Utah. So not only do we get to see the fireworks but we get to spend time with their family. I love this tradition and this year was so much fun. We had a big Bar-B-Q with the all of the family, and had s'mores after (Its not the 4th with out s'mores)
We all decided to pose for pics and we ended up being goofy. Here some of our silly poses.
Aren't Dan and I so cute? LOL! This is Dan trying to be sexy, and I am trying to get away from him. HELP!
Fireworks in Washington, you are aloud to shoot them up in the air. So last year we thought we would try some of them and found out quickly that it was hard to watch them because of all of the fall out that gets in your eyes. So this year we were prepared. Emily provided safety goggles. Aren't we such a cool bunch?
Thanks Emily and Micah for the great time! We miss you guys already! love ya.

So excited to be a big brother!

We had such fun yesterday, when my good friend Sheree let us babysit her new little girl Elle. Austin was so fascinated with her. He would sit right next to me when I was holding Elle and he would talk to her and kiss her. He also wanted to try to feed her, and he loved doing that. I could tell he was really excited to have a new baby in our home.
He would smile and then all of a sudden look sad and say "Mommy, baby Elle is alive and our baby is not. But I still love our baby Sharyn. But I like to play with baby Elle too." I thought that he was so sweat, that he loved and missed his baby sister, and still was happy to play with Elle.
It was so funny to she him try to play with the baby. He went and got a tiny car to put in her hand and when she did not take it he said "Let me show you how to play with it." And he preceded to show her how to drive the car around and make car noises. LOL! It was so dang cute. Then I suggested that he get a baby toy that plays music, and he sat down by her and would pule the string so the music would play. You could tell she really liked it and Austin was so proud of him self that he made her happy.
I can't wait to see him with his new little sister, and how he will take great care of her and cherish her.

I can't believe it. I am really having another baby girl. I am so exited and terrified all at the same time. I just can't wait until she comes in Nov. I'm so happy!

Are we done yet?

I am sorry I have not written in a while, expectantly about my feelings of being pregnant again, and my baby girl Sharyn. I think about her all the time but It has been hard for me to wright about her lately. My emotions are is such turmoil all the time that it is hard to pin down and write what I am truly filling.
I think I am not trying to think about being pregnant and the possibility's of what could happen. I just am pretending that things are normal just so I can bare the wait and make it through these long hard months.
I am so nerves all the time with this pregnancy. I am fine if I don't think about it, but as soon as the subject comes up, I can't help but to be nerves. I am having lots of mixed fillings about this baby. Like what if something goes wrong? What if its a boy, how will I feel? What if it is a girl how will I feel? So on and so forth.
I am so so exited to have November here and everything be all right. I just want this pregnancy over with and a new healthy baby In my arms.
The other day I saw my doctor for my regular appointment and he had a hard time finding the baby's heart beet. I was terrified. What if something goes wrong? How will I be able to handle this all over again? I don't think I could. Finlay he found the baby and the baby was just fine. The baby is just really high in my belly and it is hard to find the heart beet. The baby is just under my belly button.
I also am so nerves to find out what I am having. I don't think I really want to know, because I know that If I am having a boy I will be disappointed. I know that I would love him so much, but I would be sad to not have a baby sister for Ryanne to play with. To be able to see her as a great big sister to her baby sister. She was so happy to be having Sharyn, a baby girl to play with. She was trilled to be able to teach her all about being a little girly girl, and to have someone to dress up and do her hair. I also will miss all the fun of buying girly things that I did not do with Ryanne when she was little. But I just keep telling myself that what ever we are having, it is a blessing and that I should be grateful. And I am grateful, I just am ready to move on to the next step of this pregnancy.
My big ultrasound is in just a week on the 11th and I am scared to death. What if there is something wrong with the baby? I would just die. Any way I am just going crazy, and can't wait until all of this is over and my baby is safe in my arms. We only have a 160 days to go. Yug! I am so looking forward to that day. I can't wait!

Just a little note to our baby girl, Sharyn: I love you and miss you so much Sharyn and can't wait to be with you again. I hope you don't think I have forgotten you even though we are having a new little one. You will always be my 4th child and hold a special place in my heart. You will never be forgotten! I think about you every moment and want you to know the deep love I have for you, that your daddy and brothers and sister have for you. We all miss you and can't wait to see you again! We Love you Our beautiful little girl, Sharyn!

Alaska was perfect!

We had lots and lots of fun. We left for Washington state, on May 7th and just got home yesterday, around 9:oo pm Sunday the 17th. It was amazing. We decided to take a cruise to relax and get away from it all.
I love Alaska, this was our second time going and I think it was even more fun. We first went and visited family in Washington (state) and caught the cruise out of Vancouver Canada a few days later. This is Dan being funny! When you first get on the ship you have to attend muster. (A muster drill is when you have to were these ridiculous life jackets and stand in the heat, under your life boat, to practice a drill, encase the ship sinks)We had our call to get ready to attend our muster station, and Dan found our life jackets above the closet. instead of only 2 adult size jackets there was three, and it happened to be a child size. Dan started to Laugh He said " Hay look Sheila they are even taking care of the baby." So he thought it would be funny to take a picture of the small one in front of my belly. LOL!We first cruised to Juneau Alaska and had a great experience on our one privet whale watching adventure. We saw Humpback whales, mom and baby Humpbacks and even a pod of Orka whales (Orka whales are rare to see this time of year in Alaska)Then we cursed over to Skagway Alaska. Dan went salmon fishing, and we (my mom, Sharon, Ian and I) went dog sledding. That was a blast. We also saw 2 black bear that day as well. My aunt Janel and uncle Steve also came with us on the cruise.We sailed through Tracy arm (I wouldn't know, because Dan and I slept in that morning and did not see a thing) and saw Glaciers, so they they tell us. LOL!
Next was Ketchikan Alaska, and that is were we went to a Saxman tribal dance, and the Totem village. That was neat to see the Totem poles and find out a little about the history behind them. I also loved the dance they did when we arrived there. They had little tiny kids dancing along with there parents, all in costume and that was fun.
We also, that day went to a Lumber Jack show. Talk about dangerous and exiting. Wow! the skills those guys have was pretty amazing. If you have not been to a Lumber Jack show, you need to go, it was very entertaining. And of course we can't leave out all the shopping. It was a blast! I all most left out that the weather was perfect. The sun was out almost the hole trip (witch is unusual for Alaska) and we even brought it with us to Washington. PERFECT! All and all it was a perfect vacation (other than I really missed my kids wail I was gone. They stayed with Dan's parents. And of course Grandma and Grandpa was more fun, so they did not miss me at all. LOL!) We were able to visit my sister and her family and spend the tail end of our trip with them, witch was one of my favorite parts of the hole thing. I am glad to be home but am already planing our next Cruse:)

To Cora, Happy Birthday

I also wanted to post this little graphic in remembrance of little
Cora who returned to Heaven 3 years ago today.
Happy Birthday
Cora!



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